I think i wanna have ?

im 16. im a girl. my parents divorced a few months ago and my lifes been pretty upsetting since then. ive never had a boyfriend. idk if its because i dont see my dad very much anymore, but here lately ive REALLY been craving attention from guys. i dont put out or nothing, but i feel like i have to have a boy to make me happy. im a christian and i live for jesus. ive promised myself that im gonna be a virgin till im married but now idk. ive never had a boyfriend so i feel like im not gonna have one unless i give it up to him. i guess i need to stop waiting for true love cus it doesnt exist anymore. i just wanna feel loved and wanted, im tired of feeling neglected. someone help me!